for the past few weeks, i have literally been trying to soak the very essence of my house into my soul. i really, really love being at home. my family, my dog, my kitchen, my room! that one armchair in the living room! my books! a month of idleness, however, is no joke. i think i realized i had a problem when i caught myself staring dumbly at the ceiling, 30 minutes having gone by. i love my home and being away from it is equal parts scary and electrifying. i wish there had been a pre-departure session on How to Leave One's Home with Sanity Still Intact.
for the past few days, i have literally not given a thought to what i've been eating. although i'm not crazy about fast food (but i will never, ever criticize anyone's liking it because it is disgustingly delicious and "cheap" i$ my favorite word), i think just knowing that i won't be able to eat a lot of what is available to me here has led me to crave this most american of all cuisines. i had a very moving chick-fil-a dinner on thursday. i cried the whole way through a wendy's nuggets meal last tuesday. words cannot describe the despair i felt when i realized i just could not finish my chipotle burrito. heartbreaking. my only hope is that i don't get to st andrews, unpack, and find that precisely all of my jeans are now two sizes too small.
so, this is where i am now: suitcases 97% packed, bedrooom in a state of massive disarray, 50 parts of my soul weeping vs. 50 parts of my soul ecstatic.
xo nicole
p.s i have never blogged before! am i good?!
p.s.s to all of my friends, family, professors, and teachers reading: hello, i love and miss you all already.
p.s.s.s many, many thanks to Will, the cleverest of all men, for the excellent blog title. u da u da best.
yes indeed, thank you ever so much to all the participants in the "we're not clever enough to name our own blog so please lend us your ingenious ideas" competition! we received many a wonderful entry! couldn't have done it without y'all.
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